Yesterday I mentioned that I had an interesting visit with my doctor. Sometimes I think that I should switch doctors because mine isn’t too great at follow-through, but I generally like him, so I haven’t switched yet. Yesterday, his insight was pretty amazing. After that I really doubt I’ll be able to change doctors because he now has some serious insight into some of my medical issues. He basically told me that some of my problems are mental. That sounds bad, but he said it very nicely and he took me with him through his thought process so that it made sense and I wasn’t offended. He thinks that I feel I need more control over my life and so when I forget to take a medicine I feel better in some specific ways just because I feel like I am finally controlling my own life. This is hard to talk about without being specific, but I understood him and I think he is pretty right.
So what does that mean for me? I think it means that I need to intentionally take control of some aspect of my life that I am capable of taking control of. And that is what he said, but I think he is right. An example would be the dishes. If I decided that I was going to control the dishes by keeping the kitchen clean better, maybe that would make me feel like I was in control more so that other areas of my life could happen as they may and I would be happy with that. This is probably making no sense at all. That’s okay. This is mostly me retelling myself stuff so that I won’t forget it. I am frustrated with myself right now because of my lack of motivation after doing some medication changes. I am going back to the medications I was on so my life and body should even out more in the coming weeks. I look forward to that.
He also said that maybe I need to clarify the rolls I take on in life so I can differentiate between them. That part at first confused me becasue he was saying I need to compartmentalize my life and I always understood that to be a bad thing. But my hubby pointed out a time in his life where he was working several jobs and he had to compartmentalize in order to be a whole person. He needed to have a space in his life for each job so that he could go there and get that job done without having to think about the jobs. That makes sense to me. I carry several rolls. There is the Mom Elaine, the Minister Elaine, the Wife Elaine and the Elaine Elaine. This blogging stuff is the Elaine Elaine with a little bit of all the others thrown in. I think I’m going to buy a bracelet that will symbolize these various rolls so that it will remind me to keep on task and to do a better job of completing all the tasks in my life. I want something like a charm bracelet or one of those bracelets with the changeable links. Then I will get a charm/link for each roll in my life. What do you think of this idea? Now, I just need to save up some money so I can but something really cute!
November 8, 2007 at 11:29 am
I cannot imagine taking on all those rolls at such a young age. BUT, God has called you to that.
I am still single at the age of 29 and I just cannot imagine.
Always remember that God’s hand is upon you. Elaine, it is so evident to me!
November 8, 2007 at 5:54 pm
I have to keep track of many different roles too..and it is no easy task. I like to keep lists, well I don’t like to but it does keep me on task, and i also get to be in control of my list. LOL God actually gets to be in control of everything else, and is putting me through intense training in this area. Love ya Princess, praying for you!
November 9, 2007 at 10:20 am
I am just like STUNNED! How can YOU AND YOUR Husband claim to be followers of Christ and actually endorse a man like Barak Obama for President?
I mean do yo know that he and his wife lobbied to keep the Partial Birth abortion Legal!
Do you know what a partial birth abortion is?
Its where the woman delivers the baby up to the neck and a Doctor takes a vacuum hose and sucks the baby’s brains out to kill it!
Do you read the Old Testament? Have you read
Leviticus 20:5:
then I Myself will set My face against that man and against his family, and I will cut off from among their people both him and all those who play the harlot after him, by playing the harlot after Molech.
Jeremiah Chapter 32:35?:
“They built the high places of Baal that are in the valley of Ben-hinnom to cause their sons and their daughters to pass through the fire to Molech, which I had not commanded them nor had it entered My mind that they should do this abomination, to cause Judah to sin.
Just by saying you are Christian does not make you a Christian. You are a Christian if you keep Jesus Commandments. A fundamental core concept of Jesus teaching is defending the defenseless.
If you will not defend the defenseless you cannot under any circumstances call yourself a Christian!
If you choose to vote for Barak Obama then do it in private and you only cause injury to yourself but to publicly endorse him means you are wanting to draw others into your sin!
November 9, 2007 at 12:02 pm
Whoa! Where did that come from? Where do I endorse Barack Obama? What my husband has on his blog is his business. Don’t come berating me just because you like to start arguments!
November 10, 2007 at 9:50 pm
Not starting an argument.
If I remember right when you and your husband married you became “one flesh”
If you dont agree with your husband then you need to advise him that he is denying his faith by a public endorsment of a man who lobbied to keep legal one of the most barbaric abortion procedures known to mankind!
Not to mention Obama’s racist views.
November 10, 2007 at 10:10 pm
John, you are starting an argument. How can you say otherwise? But I won’t be baited. This isn’t even applicable to my blog and your previous comment on my blog, some months ago, was not nice either. Due to your extremist views, I have decided to ban your IP from commenting on my blog.
To everyone else, I do not do this lightly. This man has been quite rude to my husband and I, through our blogs and e-mail, more than once now. We do not appreciate comments left in a judgmental spirit. We should be able to communicate without being judgmental.
February 1, 2008 at 8:02 pm
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