Well, I am back from the memorial service for my uncle. Thank you all for your prayers. I really appreciate them. It went well. My uncle Tom’s first ex-wife (current good friend)’s significant other did the memorial. Does that make sense? I hope so. Anyways, it was a perfect length and some of his family and friends went up and talked about him. It was very touching. I know he will be missed by many people. My hubby wrote a great post about the service. I, too, pray for all those left behind, saddened by his leaving. I hope that I will be a good witness of God’s love to them.

Thank you, honey for a beautiful post!

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I feel empty right now. I think I am just overwhelmed at tasks that need doing this week. I have a wedding to plan, a funeral to attend (which will take all of one day with travel), a house that is a disaster right and needs some serious attention, a husband that needs to plan ahead for his homework and apparently needs my prodding to do so… I’m just stressed out! I thought the funeral was Tuesday and I just found out that it is Thursday. That is a good thing, but for some reason it set me crying while on the phone with my mom. But, right now, I just give everything to God.

God, I need your help! I can’t do all this on my own. I’m a mess! I give you all of my worries and sadness. I give you my feelings of inadequacy and failure. Please take my life and work it out how it should be worked out. Thank you for loving me and caring about me always. I love you. Amen.

I am reading a new book right now. The Power of a Praying Wife, by Stormie Omartian, is about how praying for your husband can change the way you see him and increase your love for him. I am not very far into the book yet, but I have already seen a big difference. I am not on the verge of divorce or anything near that, but there is a lot of truth in what she is saying.

The last couple of days I’ve seen myself do things I wouldn’t normally do because I feel closer to Chris through praying for him. I’ve been more loving to him and I even folded the laundry today (unfortunately, that is a rare occurrence). I would suggest that any wife read this book, but especially if you are going through some rough times. I plan on passing my copy onto others so that they can benefit from it too.

Stormie Omartian has many books that begin “the power of a praying”. My hubby has The Power of a Praying Husband. I don’t think he has ever read it and with his masters program keeping him busy, he probably won’t anytime soon. But that’s okay. I am going to be praying for him because I want to and not because I want him to pray for me. He probably already prays for me more than I pray for him. Really, the point of it for me is to become a better wife to him. I am sorely lacking in the wife department most of the time. I want to improve and I prayer always helps improve me.

As a wrote in my last post, I preached on the Sabbath this week. My sermon prep was very interesting. I kept trying to work on my sermon but every time I tried, I would get interrupted. I must admit that some of it was my own doing, but not most of it. One day, Chris took the kids away so that I could work for about an hour and I had an amazing 8 phone calls! While I was at work on Friday, I was going to work on my sermon after I finished my other work, but my mom showed up and we talked for an hour and a half. She has never been to my work before; it was really strange! All week I felt like I had no idea what I was talking about in my sermon. Even last night I kinda just gave it to God and prayed that He would speak through me. Today at church, the 3 kids in our church that are preschool age or younger were being the loudest they have ever been and even running in the aisles. It was crazy! I kept trying to talk louder and louder. Finally, I had enough of this struggle to preach. I stopped the service and told everyone that I seriously thought that Satan did not want this sermon preached and that I was going to pray. I even said, and it’s true, that I don’t say that lightly. Satan is not behind every bad thing in life, but I truly believe he was behind this confusion this week. So I rebuked Satan and prayed for God’s protection and help. The kids were still loud, but Chris said that the attitude changed and my sermon was better after that. Thank you, God!!! To top the week off, when I went to put my sermon on the blog, it took me about an hour to copy and paste it right! It was crazy!

What I really cant figure out, is why Satan would care that much. Sure, the Sabbath is important to keep, but most likely the people that needed to hear my sermon, weren’t even at church! What did he have to gain?

Well, to give you a better idea of what I was trying to say about the Sabbath, here is a synopsis: (more…)

The Prayer of JabezI started reading The Prayer of Jabez by Bruce Wilkerson the other day. I have to admit that I tend to shy away from reading or doing things that have gone through a “fad phase”. Sometimes it seems like things get too popular and everyone does something simply because they want to be part of the fad. However, it has been some time since the prayer of Jabez fad and my mom gave me the book and recently suggested again that I read it, so I am.

I am nearly done with it already because it isn’t long. I think I only have one chapter left. My opinion on the book is this: it’s a great prayer and a good practice to pray it. I am enjoying reading the book and praying the prayer. However, I recently preached on the Lord’s Prayer and have been praying that since then. The prayer of Jabez is essentially the same except that it is shorter than the Lord’s Prayer. I think I prefer the Lord’s Prayer actually. It is more focused on God working through you than on God blessing you. God blessing you is a fine thing to pray as illustrated by Bruce Wilkinson’s book, but I think that we all need to focus more on God and stop focusing on ourselves. I think the Lord’s Prayer does a better job of helping me do that. You be the judge for yourself. Try out both. The essential thing for all of us is to seek God and His help and guidance in our lives. We need to be His workforce on Earth.

The Prayer of Jabez: 1 Chronicles 4:10

Oh, that you would bless me
and enlarge my territory!
Let your hand be with me,
and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain.

The Lord’s Prayer: Matthew 6:9b-13

Our Father which art in heaven,
Hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come.
Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil:
For thine is the kingdom,
and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen.

This week was the 52nd General Council of the Assemblies of God. It was held in Indianapolis, IN. There were some major changes debated. Some passed and other did not. I would like to highlight just a few that were the most important to me.

First of all, our new General Superintendent is Brother George O. Wood. I am very pleased with this. I have heard good things about how he is progressive in his thinking and actions. I believe he will do well in this position, especially as we transition into a fellowship that seeks to keep its younger and female ministers and younger constituents. I appreciate all that Brother Trask has dome for us and pray for him as he continues his journey of life with God’ direction.

Our new Assistant Superintendent is Brother Alton Garrison. I must be honest in my hopes that Brother Doug Clay would be voted into this position. However, I know that God led the voting that took place. I was unable to be there, but I did pray fervently for His will. Therefore I know that Brother Garrison is the right man for the job.

Our new Executive Director of US Missions is Brother Zollie Smith; an African American man! Check out 1:16:20 of this video. It is a moving acceptance speak. I am very happy to see what I believe is our first African American on our Assembly of God Executive Team. I praise God for his guidance as people voted. (more…)

My daughter Princess drew me a picture! While I was on the phone with my mom, on Sunday when she told me about my grandma, Princess was starting to whine and yell right next to me. Chris stopped her and told her to let me talk and explained why I was sad. Then Princess decided to draw me this picture.

*As a disclaimer, I should add that all her drawings of people look like this. She draws the ribs! She drew this on the back of another picture. That is why the background looks strange. But, this is my grandma. Isn’t it sweet? I love my Princess!

Sunday night I was reading Psalms looking for something comforting. I found Psalm 5.

Give ear to my words, O Lord,
consider my sighing.
Listen to my cry for help,
my King and my God,
for to you I pray.
In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice;
in the morning I lay my requests before you
and wait in expectation.

You are not a God who takes pleasure in evil;
with you the wicked cannot dwell.
The arrogant cannot stand in your presence;
you hate all who do wrong.
You destroy those who tell lies;
bloodthirsty and deceitful men
the Lord abhors.

But I, by your great mercy,
will come into your house;
in reverence will I bow down
toward your holy temple.
Lead me, O Lord, in your righteousness
because of my enemies–
make straight your way before me.

Not a word from their mouth can be trusted;
their heart is filled with destruction.
Their throat is an open grave;
with their tongue they speak deceit.
Declare them guilty, O God!
Let their intrigues be their downfall.
Banish them for their many sins,
for they have rebelled against you.

But let all who take refuge in you be glad;
let them ever sing for joy.
Spread your protection over them,
that those who love your name may rejoice in you.

For surely, O Lord, you bless the righteous;
you surround them with your favor as with a shield.

Some of it is scary, kinda of, but I really liked the the first and last two stanzas. I was crying out to God because of my fear that my grandma didn’t make it to heaven and God comforted me and surrounded me with His favor. And I believe brought my grandma into His protection. I do feel assured of her destination now. I believe she did make it to heaven. And I know that no matter what, God is in control and is a just God. I must trust Him. And I must continue trying constantly to become more holy and obedient. I must further His Kingdom while I am here on Earth. I pray that I fulfill the goals He has for me and that I will be assured of the rest of my family’s fate before they die.